My peace I leave with you.

God has been doing something strangely wonderful within me lately.

With all the changes either happening now, gradually happening, or soon-to-be happening, I have felt like I have no control over anything. Graduating, school, locations, moving, wedding plans, something involving the military, life plans. You name it. I have felt out of control of "it" at some point in the last given year or so. Which is very human of me, yes I will use the cop out excuse.

The wonderful thing that God is doing in me though, is replacing anxiety with a surprisingly amount of peace. I've reached a point in this (oh my goodness, I can't believe I'm using this cliche thing) "journey," be it graduating college, getting married, or moving across the country, where I don't feel so much anxiousness anymore. Granted, that is speaking for this moment, please don't ask me this between the two weeks of me graduating and getting married. However, I am also learning I can only take it day by day. That's what God has given me. Today. And not only has He given me today, but He has given me peace and rest, and then He's instructed me to be thankful for it! 

"And let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, to which indeed you were called in one body. And be thankful." Colossian 3:15

He's gone a step further lately though. He's not only replaced my anxiousness with peace, but also with excitement and enthusiasm. I am so excited to be living my last year in school with amazing ladies. I am excited to be engaged and love this stage in our relationship before we're arriving at the alter. I am thrilled with changes, even though at times I am absolutely terrified. I am looking forward to new places and adventures with the person I happen to be in love with. And I am anxious in all the best ways for these things to happen, to graduate and feel accomplished for all the hard work I have put in to the past three, soon-to-be four years. I am anxious in a good way to be on my own and away from familiarity to create a home and familiarity among new places with new people, not because I do not love my 'old places or people' but because they have taught me well.

"I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.” John 16:33 

What a wonderful reassurance when we don't feel so peaceful all of the time, hmm?