What I've been up to.

December is seemingly flying by. But this is what I've been up to.

I had to say goodbye to my littles on Wednesday;
My heart absolutely shattered when they gave me notes and hugs and letters. Who wouldn't feel awesome when a bunch of nine year olds told you how "pretty" and "smart" and "helpful" and "awesome" you are..I mean, come on. The best part is how they said what a great teacher I'm going to be and begged me to stay with them and teach them. Let's just say, it was a nice affirmation of all my hard work towards my future career. No matter how much I have to study for my certification tests or how hard I work towards graduating with my degree.

Upon leaving, I was showered with books as gifts from each one of them, even a note from a parent telling me how much fun their child had learning while I was in the classroom. My teacher heart felt amazing when I heard struggling students tell me how I'd helped them. I even received a generous gift from the other team of teachers and aides. 

It was hard not to cry on my last day. And I was practically a puddle as the students were reading out loud to me what they wrote in their cards. One of them shouted in the middle of readings, "you're crying!" I teacher-glared at them jokingly and quickly answered, "No I'm not!" (Maybe I was tearing up a tiny tiny bit....)

Christmas is coming. It is unbelievable that it is the 20th. 

In other news,

I am home. 

Two cups of coffee and five hours later, yesterday. 

Home in a very complex way. 

But home, no less. 

Christmas 2010...the wonderful unsuccessful surprise.

Oh, and soon I get to say hello to this fellow again. 

My heart is so very excited. 

Looking ahead...

I am baffled and exhilarated(?) that this wedding of mine (ours) is nearly five months away!?!? Which means I guess it's time to start planning it again, right? I can't believe it's been four years since I met this guy. Time sure does fly. 

Normally I have goals in the New Year, not resolutions per say. Goals for the New Year and fresh start and thanksgiving for the past year. But I'm not sure I can have many with this so constantly changing and about to change. I think I'll stick with the theme of 'grow where I'm planted.' I guess due to the fact that my soil will change this year a couple of times. Other than that, I'd be lying if I didn't mention my health goals and all that I feel like I've already achieved. Even on days where I'm extra hard on myself or don't work out, I realize it's okay. It's cliche to say that it's a lifestyle change but it truly is. And I really do feel so much better when I'm "on track." Whatever that means. So no, I'm not one of those crazy brides who works out to lose such and such amount of weight before the wedding. I'm pretty happy with the path that I'm on. My goal is to stay on it and tweak it and find ways to improve it, and me. 

My other goals would be to help along my growth. Take care of the plant. Water it, nourish it. Emotionally speaking. 

I want to stay on the right track physically but also spiritually and emotionally. I have the independent time to learn how to be a wife and how to grow as one. So I'm really looking forward to that as well. Also how to grow in a place I'm not used to, amongst changes I cannot control. That one will be tricky, I know. 

But I know it is possible.