A daunting realization.

Just like every soon-to-be college graduate, I am starting to feel that real world, career path looming pressure. The kind they don't tell you about, but you hear murmurs of from friends just a little bit older than you. The kind that makes you start to suddenly doubt if these past four years have even happened at all, if you can do it, if you even learned anything in the career field you chose as a naive, bright-eyed and bushy-tailed eighteen year old college freshman. 

Now, twenty-two, you have definitely learned some things you'd never realize or plan to.

It's terrifying, to say the least. I've been wrapped inside my head a lot lately. As per usual. Overwhelmed, feeling a little under qualified. Self-doubting, and second guessing. I think this is normal. At least I hope it is. But I wouldn't be surprised. At least I know that much. I know that I'm not alone in these feelings. I know this is a phase, a usual occurrence of those pre graduation, I'm sure. As the next four months pass, I'm beginning to recognize that I will go through these phases. After all, going from college senior, to college graduate to married lady, to moving across the country and starting a new life might be a little bit of an identity crisis waiting to happen. But that's okay. 

Because I am absolutely sure of a few things that will help me get through; 

• I am not alone in my overwhelmed roller coaster feelings. Go ahead, poll one hundred soon-to-be college graduates and tell me what you find. I bet I could give you a hint. Because there is no way I am alone in feeling like this, like the world is suddenly enormous and daunting. Or there is a sudden need to go back and have multiple redos because you just need that one more moment, or that memory to repeat itself again. You need to feel that newness, that freshness, that same naivety you felt coming in to college. But I hate to break it to you kiddo, welcome to that big bad world. It's waiting for you. To do something. To make something of it and of that path you chose. It wasn't by accident. You had a God and passions and inspirations and people that somehow helped in your choosing. 

• I am loved by a God who knows all of the mysteries of the universe, including how the heck I am going to handle this all. But that's the beauty. I don't have to handle everything at once. He's got it. I just need to have faith. {Matthew 17:20} And sometimes, be still and let him handle it. {Exodus 14:14}. Something I'm learning, but I'm not very good at. We're getting there, I hope. 

• I will have a husband (slash, I already have a fabulous fiance). But I repeat, I will have a husband! Which more or less, is like the best and ultimate support system, or so I've been told. It's basically a handsome built-in boost of love and encouragement...and I mean, come on, how great does that sound when the world looks terrifying.

• New things are exciting, albeit scary, but stop focusing on that part. Embrace the adventure! I get to meet new people, make new connections, go new places and take on a whole new region of the country. I am excited to get to know this almost different culture and type of people, even if they're so incredibly unfamiliar to me. It will be okay. New is scary, but exciting. 

Last but not least...One day at a time, right? 

Stay tuned.