The first day of fall was for wonderful friends who come to visit you on the weekend and early mornings at new churches with new experiences. It was for branching out in hopes for some receival and promise of a try-again-soon. It was for opening windows wide, and a cool breeze that lingers inside the four plain white walls as you do long to-do lists of homework. It's for mixed feelings about this last favorite brightly colored Northern season, with a dash of fear and nostalgia knowing how much your life is going to be different this time next year. It is for meaningful quality music sifting slowly through the speakers as you finally collect those certain songs for a certain Saturday. It is for anticipation, preparation and anxiousness as the week finally carries you all the way to that day you've been anticipating since you signed up for this major freshman year. This is going to be an exhausting, terrifying, fulfilling, amazing, exciting next few months.
In other news, this little apartment has finally earned a rhythm, gotten cozy little touches and has already withheld countless hours of laughing and memories.
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| "Who except God can give you peace? Has the world ever been able to satisfy your heart?"St. Gerard Majella |
Autumn has surely arrived here in Pennsylvania and I can't help but to think about how blessed I am to experience a new place. Well, a new place as of three years ago. I cannot believe it's been three, soon to be four full years since I first set foot in this place. While my heart is still, and always will be it seems, back in New England for this beautiful season, I've grown accustom to seasons in many ways. Seasons of change. Seasons of renovation. Seasons of strength and defeat, renewal and reinvention. As much as I hold onto my Northern roots, I guess I have made my own paths around this place as well. It's interesting to think that even though I wouldn't call this state or place "home" per say, it is a sort of temporary home.
And that word home is such an interesting concept,
something I'm still learning about.
More on that later.
I've been given amazing opportunities lately, learning opportunities, difficult ones, memorable ones. I've found a routine just as I am going to begin to form a new one and go out in my field to finally establish myself in a little classroom full of big ideas and daunting days of life lessons; some taught by me, most I'm sure, simply learned by me.
Life, as of lately, is many things, many feelings,
many pieces of this somehow puzzle.
Some pieces fit nicely, some have jagged edges,
some are broken and taped haphazardly to hold themselves in place
but all are part of some big picture.
This season of life and of my life.
Somehow.
Even though I don't know how all the time, I know that I don't need to know.
I know that I'm not the one who always has to know how everything works together, right?
"For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven."
Ecclesiastes 3:1.
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